i’m not listening to music today.
i’m working. i like to work. it seems those around me seek oblivion in drink and drugs. i seek oblivion in my work. it’s really liberating to immerse one’s self into something one does not give a fuck about. i get up at 7 and switch the computer on and the day passes and then it’s 10pm and i stop and eat something. i don’t get bored or restless during that time. i cease to exist. work is like a dreamless sleep. Working is as close as i can get to not existing without actually killing myself.

last night Tom came over to listen to some mixes. we both agreed that i have trouble mixing the bass and the kick drum. i still don’t know how to mix those damn instuments.

i’ve got the opportunity of going to the lighning bolt peel session tonight. last wednesday i din’t finish work til 10.30 so i have a feeling i’m going to miss that opportunity. that makes me like work a little less.